"You're so brave, Tashoo," Noam tells me when she sees small children at the resort swimming pool staring and pointing.
I tell her my secret is to not look away, to stare back, and maybe give them a wave with Finneas.
"That way they can't make me the strange one," I say.
Noam says she would like to kick them into the deep end.
But there are larger implications when skimpily-clad, slim young women saunter about everywhere you look in this holiday hot spot.
Every photo I take of Noam and show to her, she wrinkles her nose and says, "Ugly. I'm so fluffy."
"You can't change how everyone sees you, you can only decide to be OK with yourself," I say.
I watch a woman, or girl, walking toward the water, her long perfect back growing out of her symmetrical hips straight up to meet her relaxed, carefree shoulders. I'm so jealous.
I never had a back like that. At her age, scoliosis was already crippling my genetically shortened torso. Regardless how carefree my now thirty-something, emboldened spirit might be, my spine will never reflect it.
Yet, I'm angry with Noam's self-criticism and her doubts about finding a man who will appreciate her body. It leaves no room for her wise-beyond-her-years grounding and easy-going, light-hearted nature. When she says, "I love you, Tashoo," it means more to me than most because her sincerity is palpable.
Neta is Noam's mom. I like the way she drives her truck over the rocky volcanic Golan farmland, one arm resting on the door, the other, with several leather bracelets, casually guiding the wheel. She lets her hair hang long, parted in the middle, like I imagine she has done for a long time. Her work-tough boots move up and down on the pedal.
Her shoulders are broad and strong, but she walks easily without any evidence of stress. Her soft voice and easy laughter exude a natural calm. She brings peace into a room.
I am struck by her beauty. This is the kind of woman I want to be.
One of the brave.
OneArmGirl
"That way they can't make me the strange one," I say.
Noam says she would like to kick them into the deep end.
But there are larger implications when skimpily-clad, slim young women saunter about everywhere you look in this holiday hot spot.
Every photo I take of Noam and show to her, she wrinkles her nose and says, "Ugly. I'm so fluffy."
"You can't change how everyone sees you, you can only decide to be OK with yourself," I say.
I watch a woman, or girl, walking toward the water, her long perfect back growing out of her symmetrical hips straight up to meet her relaxed, carefree shoulders. I'm so jealous.
I never had a back like that. At her age, scoliosis was already crippling my genetically shortened torso. Regardless how carefree my now thirty-something, emboldened spirit might be, my spine will never reflect it.
Yet, I'm angry with Noam's self-criticism and her doubts about finding a man who will appreciate her body. It leaves no room for her wise-beyond-her-years grounding and easy-going, light-hearted nature. When she says, "I love you, Tashoo," it means more to me than most because her sincerity is palpable.
Her shoulders are broad and strong, but she walks easily without any evidence of stress. Her soft voice and easy laughter exude a natural calm. She brings peace into a room.
I am struck by her beauty. This is the kind of woman I want to be.
One of the brave.
OneArmGirl
